I trust people too much. I have been screwed over in so many friendships that tit makes it harder to trust the next person. Theres always a line you draw when you are meeting someone and getting to know them. You don't tell too much because you want to feel out their personality and things like that. I know where that line is but at times I cross it and let a little too much go. It just seems the friends that know the most about me are the ones that always seem to screw me over. People wonder why I am friends with mostly guys. Now you know, girls suck. That's right I said it. Granted I've been screwed over by guys also. But they have the balls to tell me to my face what they think of me or what they heard about me. Girls just like back talking and back stabbing. If you don't like something about me or think I'm annoying or whatever, tell that to my FACE. We aren't in high school anymore. This person has done this to other people before too I'm sure. Well he/she might be losing 2 good friends in this process. I am not taking this anymore. Trust will have to be earned and it will take a while now. This messed up my whole view on friends in general.
Li // 11:26 AM
Don't go to the mall.. Ever... I was in such a good mood when I went to Target, found a cute dress for Hawaii (no bathing suits I liked) but hey... I have enough bathing suits already. I was still in a pretty good mood considering how tired I was. Then me (the idiot) decided to go to the mall for the second time this week. You think I would have learned the first time I went. It was twice as crowded. That didn't change the fact that I wanted boots( I returned the ones I got for xmas) and needed a belly button ring. ANYWAY... Nothing was accomplished by going to the mall. I even forgot my Vicky's card (I think I may have done that purposely in my subconscious) i was actualyl kind of mad because they are having their Semi-Annual sale and i need (want) all the cute stuff.. and its cheap now! lol
anyway.. i came home in a shitty mood, all because of the mall. im so tired now also... it sucks... anyway... i gotta go take a shower before rich calls me when hes done at the gym and im not done :)
<3 ya. mean it. bye.
Li // 5:08 PM
Haven't written here in awhile. figured since i have some spare time...i'd write. Hope everyone's christmas was good. Mine was good :) New years is comin quick which means Hawaii is almost here! January 8th-January 15th I will be in Hawaii with Rich, Jess, and the Verspoor's. Goos stuff. Haven't flown in my life so hey why the hell not go on a LONG flight. Im jsut hoping I dont panic or anything. I should be fine.
With the semester over, I ahve a lot more time to read. I am reading Bergdorf Blondes. Not sure if i would recommend thgat to anyone or not yet. Kinda shallow in a way. Dana gave me The Lovely Bones. that is supposed to be good... well she liked it.. how bad could it be. Then on the plane... ill be reading the five people you meet in heaven. I have been told that is a great book and to NOT watch th emovie before you read the book.
Anyway... not much to say. well theres actually a lot to say but i dont wanna get into anything really.
John Ringfield is home from Navy Boot camp. Josh had a party for him the day he got back.. it was a Summer in December theme.... not the greatest day to pick for that theme (it was the day after chriostmass when it snowed!) all the girls were freezing. but hey i took 2nd place in poker that night (out of about 16 people) not bad if i do say so myself. haven't played poker in awhile... i won then kinda retired. but playing against pete is tough stuff (yes melissa... Pete Grosso... from HS lol) funny stuff... anyway... im in a mellow mood now so i really dont feel like typing much.. after doing almost 12 hours at my job i dont really feel like doing much of anything honestly :) im goin out tonight for tom's 21st birthday probably... dunno where yet... ut we will see.
Write more later.
Li // 8:04 PM
I have been so busy lately. I had 3 accounting tests last week and was soo stressed about it.... PMS and testing do not go together. Life is jstu whizzing right by me and I feel like I am standing still watching it all pass. It's getting to a poitn with a lot of things where i dont' really care anymore. well.. i care but there are things that i know I can do nothign ab out and there are other things where I just don't have time to deal with. That sounded really bad.
Rich adn I are good,.. 2 and a half years and still going... like the freakign energizer bunnies... eww don't take that the wrong way. it wasn't meant in a peverted way hehe.
School sucks as usual. 1 year left. I am supposed to get out in May but I doubt that is happening.. looking more like fall 2005. i will only be going part time though in the fall.
I need to vent about something but I don't know who is going to read it and I don't want a certain someone to read it so i really can't type it here then!
Well I am in charge of the football pool this year. (as if I wasn't busy enough) I dont' know why I volunteered just a lapse of sanity on my part I guess. its fun though. I lvoe things like this...I think me and jess are the only two girls in teh pool but we are the only two that follow football also.
Playing poker a lot lately also. im glad that other people play b/c when i was a kid i played a lot then i never used to play. and I am glad im getting back into it again. Don't worry I am not being an obsessive gambler or anything. lolol
Jsut a game here and there. I know how to spend and save my $. I won too so its not a total waste of $ either.
Hmm well i should go.. tax accounting hw is calling my name...ugh
Li // 12:03 PM
Just letting everyone know... I haven't written here in awhile.. I will try harder but in the meantime i m concentrating on this other site... http://profiles.myspace.com/users/4162269
Jill got me hooked and I usually blog there. :)ill try here though also
Li // 10:13 AM